Don't avoid documenting your struggles and 'cringe' beginnings out of shame. Instead, view it as collecting material for your future success story. This act of documentation is a demonstration of belief in your eventual victory and creates an invaluable narrative asset.
When others call your efforts 'cringe,' it's often a defensive reaction to you changing your social status relative to them. Rather than being a mark of shame, this label should be interpreted as a sign that you are on the right path and making progress.
Caring deeply about anything—from business to hobbies—can be framed as 'cringe' by those who don't try. The real failure is not the awkwardness of trying hard, but the fear of looking awkward. Hating on someone's passion is often a projection of one's own lack of commitment.
You cannot achieve excellence without first being willing to be incompetent. The world rewards those who 'deserve' success, and deserving it means enduring the 'cringe' phase of being bad for a long time. Your first products, videos, and attempts will be imperfect, and that is a necessary step.